Dickey! Of course i haven't forget about you! Did you think why wendy hasn't come to write you something? Do yo know why? I was going to say hi to you, but I didn't.. I tried to control myself, I didn't want to login this blog, I didn't want to be sad, I didn't want to cry too much for you..
This time, I haven't cry when I typing to you.. Is it a good thing? ^^ I want you be good, hope you are happy in Rainbow Bridge. Can you come to see me sometimes if you can? Sorry, it might not easy, right? hehe
Its ok, Dickey. Just let you knw that I will never forget you.. Hope you too.. Don't forget me. You guess will we meet again? If do, when?
Tomorrow is a RSPCA Million walks in Canberra, I won't go there.. i wish to go with you.. why I never walk that far with you when you were here? You are such a unlucky boy, becoz I didn't treat you good enough.
Dickey Chan, I love you and miss you so much.
Wendy jei jei
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Time to move on?
Dickey, how can i move on?
I was in my bf's car in this morning, we were going to jog around the lake. I was looking at the blue sky from the car~ the weather was so nice today, but no rainbow bcoz no rain. Suddenly, I was thinking about you and my tear nearly come out again. I missed you, i wanted to big shout, i wanted to cry loudly. my feeling was so bad, my mood was so down. I want to feel your warm again. I was thinking, were you in the sky? If yes, what were you doing? If yes, I wanted fly to the sky and see you, let me see you again. I want to know the truth, will it happen? Where we actually go after we leave from this world? Can we meet each others again? The sky is so huge and we are just little things, is that possible to meet you again? I LOve you~ always always always in my heart. My Dickey, My lovely Dickey... i want to hug you now..
I was in my bf's car in this morning, we were going to jog around the lake. I was looking at the blue sky from the car~ the weather was so nice today, but no rainbow bcoz no rain. Suddenly, I was thinking about you and my tear nearly come out again. I missed you, i wanted to big shout, i wanted to cry loudly. my feeling was so bad, my mood was so down. I want to feel your warm again. I was thinking, were you in the sky? If yes, what were you doing? If yes, I wanted fly to the sky and see you, let me see you again. I want to know the truth, will it happen? Where we actually go after we leave from this world? Can we meet each others again? The sky is so huge and we are just little things, is that possible to meet you again? I LOve you~ always always always in my heart. My Dickey, My lovely Dickey... i want to hug you now..
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
35 days
This is 35 days already, I said "goodnight" to you 35 days ago. Today, your face has been coming up to my mind many many times again. Why I haven't been see you for so long in my dream? Have you forgotten your elder sis.? Come to see me tonight plz.
I was crying in the shower, I miss you so much. My heart feels really deeply painful. Once I think about that I have no any method to see you again now and my heart just feels terrible.
My Dickey, you know what? these couple days, I suddenly found out somthing... actually, we both gave the "marks" to each other and those marks were both from acidents! I felt sorry that I dropped the hot dish on your body when we both were still young..^^ and left you a mark on your body. I guess, it was the most painful in your life. Sorry to gave you that big pain!
When you fighted with Lucky over than 10 yrs ago. I tried to seprate you both by my hands, you careless to gave me a bite mark.. Don't worry! I know you were just want to bite Lucky and not me. I know.. I love this mark, at least I could feel and touch it when I miss you now. I feel scared, I worried this mark will not stay on my arms until I die. You should bite harder at that moment. Then I don't need to worry the mark will gone.
I was crying in the shower, I miss you so much. My heart feels really deeply painful. Once I think about that I have no any method to see you again now and my heart just feels terrible.
My Dickey, you know what? these couple days, I suddenly found out somthing... actually, we both gave the "marks" to each other and those marks were both from acidents! I felt sorry that I dropped the hot dish on your body when we both were still young..^^ and left you a mark on your body. I guess, it was the most painful in your life. Sorry to gave you that big pain!
When you fighted with Lucky over than 10 yrs ago. I tried to seprate you both by my hands, you careless to gave me a bite mark.. Don't worry! I know you were just want to bite Lucky and not me. I know.. I love this mark, at least I could feel and touch it when I miss you now. I feel scared, I worried this mark will not stay on my arms until I die. You should bite harder at that moment. Then I don't need to worry the mark will gone.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
To my dear Dickey
My Dickey,
I met you when I was 11 yrs old, now I am turn to 27. I am not tough enough to accept you left, I feel so weak. I cried again just then~ when will my tears stop? Times doesn't help much to relief my painful. My heart is going to break soon.
I know you were just a part in my life~ At least I had study, friends, hobbies. For you- me, dad and mum were all in your life! How much of time did we spend with you? NOT MUCH! NOT ENOUGHT! How much of the time did you stay at home with Lucky and Mic? I HATE MYSELF! I REALLY HATE MYSELF NOW! I could do much much better if you come back to me now.
Seriously, this is the first time that I feel that much regret. I love you. I love you. I love you so much. Come back to us, please. I want the time back to before, but I can't change anything now. Sorry, Dickey. Forgive my selfish. Forgive me. Your life could be much better, much brighter if I spent more more time with you when you were there. I didn't do my best! I DIDn't!!!
Come back sleep with me, swim with me, run with me. Let me pat you, cuddle you, kiss you agian. Do I have to wait until one day I pass thought the Rainbow bridge?
Last night I couldn't see you in my dream, where have you been? Don't forget me, jump into my dream everynight, please. It's the only way that I can touch you, feel you....
I love you, I really love you... I want have a big cuddle and sleep with you now. Goodnight~ hope see you in the dream tonight.
Your elder sister
I met you when I was 11 yrs old, now I am turn to 27. I am not tough enough to accept you left, I feel so weak. I cried again just then~ when will my tears stop? Times doesn't help much to relief my painful. My heart is going to break soon.
I know you were just a part in my life~ At least I had study, friends, hobbies. For you- me, dad and mum were all in your life! How much of time did we spend with you? NOT MUCH! NOT ENOUGHT! How much of the time did you stay at home with Lucky and Mic? I HATE MYSELF! I REALLY HATE MYSELF NOW! I could do much much better if you come back to me now.
Seriously, this is the first time that I feel that much regret. I love you. I love you. I love you so much. Come back to us, please. I want the time back to before, but I can't change anything now. Sorry, Dickey. Forgive my selfish. Forgive me. Your life could be much better, much brighter if I spent more more time with you when you were there. I didn't do my best! I DIDn't!!!
Come back sleep with me, swim with me, run with me. Let me pat you, cuddle you, kiss you agian. Do I have to wait until one day I pass thought the Rainbow bridge?
Last night I couldn't see you in my dream, where have you been? Don't forget me, jump into my dream everynight, please. It's the only way that I can touch you, feel you....
I love you, I really love you... I want have a big cuddle and sleep with you now. Goodnight~ hope see you in the dream tonight.
Your elder sister
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Did you come back to me last night?
Did you come back to me last night?
You jumped to my dream again last night, thank you baby~
This time was so different. Was it a dream? It was so real, I can't even say it's real or a dream after I woke up.
I could feel you, I could touch you and you were so warm with soft hair. Your eyes were looking at me seems you wanted to say somthing to me. Did You? What were you trying to say to me?
Once I woke up in this morning, I didn't cry but my tear just non-stop running out....I could control my voice, I could control my facial expression but I couldn't control my tears. My heart feels so painful as fresh as the first day when you left. 20 days~ likes a long nightmare. i miss you so much, no any word can expain this feeling.
You jumped to my dream again last night, thank you baby~
This time was so different. Was it a dream? It was so real, I can't even say it's real or a dream after I woke up.
I could feel you, I could touch you and you were so warm with soft hair. Your eyes were looking at me seems you wanted to say somthing to me. Did You? What were you trying to say to me?
Once I woke up in this morning, I didn't cry but my tear just non-stop running out....I could control my voice, I could control my facial expression but I couldn't control my tears. My heart feels so painful as fresh as the first day when you left. 20 days~ likes a long nightmare. i miss you so much, no any word can expain this feeling.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
再見,多謝你陪伴我們16年~Dickey 9/2/09
Dickey Chan- 陳迪奇聽日我哋真係要同你講Bye Bye,每次我地出街都會同你講"Dickey~Bye Bye", 但係今次唔同亦無勇氣去講.'老人家'你倦了! 由聽日開始你可以好舒服咁瞓,唔使再比Mummy部CD 機噪醒^^原來人到o左絕望真係會唸埋d無謂野,如果我嫁比Dickey可以救返佢.我真係會架.
ByeBye~thx for everthing in past 16 years
Dickey Chan~ We really have to say "Bye Bye" tomorrow. Everytime we should say byebye to you before we go out, but this time is different and I have no brave to say it to you. "my old man" you should feel very tired! You will have a nice sleep start from tomorrow, and never wake up by Mummy's CD player in every morning ^^ Now I totally understand if people feel hopeless then they might imagaine some stupid thing. If I marry to you that could save your life. I would say, "I do. Dickey. My dear Dickey"
再聽不見你的聲音,懷念你發怒的樣子7/2/09
對唔住,辛苦了你.你真係好叻仔!由朝早6點,医生打電話比我同我講你開始有肺漬水.你足足等了9個鐘,我知道這段時間你不會好受.但我堅持咁同医生講要等埋Daddy返香港去見你,我相信如果你識講野.你自已都會咁同医生講^^當見到你的時候,你喘氣嘅聲音好大.知道你好努力.多謝你~整個過程好快,見到你好舒服咁馒馒瞓着.心好痛,好痛..好唔捨得你.一家人也為你離開呢個屋企以流淚,我地永遠也記住你是這家的一份子.
I can never listen to your voice, miss your anger face
Sorry, I knew you were feeling so sick. You are such a smart boy! Doctor called me in this morning 6 am. She explained to me about your body condition in really bad and started have a "water lung". you had been waiting for 9 hours. I know you should feeling really bad in those hours. Sorry again, I didn't listen to the doctor to let you go earlier. We wanted to wait Daddy come back to Hong Kong and see you one more time. I believe you would say that to doctor as well if you could speak. Once I got there and saw you. Your beathing was sounds so diffcuilt, you tried your best. Thank you. The whole process was so fast, I was watching you fell to sleep. Very pearceful. My heart was broken, painful~Very pain. I didn't want you leave. The whole family cried because of you leave. We will never forget that you were one of the members in our family.
今天Dicky回家了9/2/09
昨日係我同mummy最後一次摸Dickey,從未感受過他的身體如此冰冷.沒有體温,令我真正感受到他的離去.火化後,接到他的骨灰.感覺有點奇怪.心中想,"點解咁輕?生命原來真係咁"抱住那個盒子在的士裹面,令我回想上一個星期才抱住他撘過的士.現在只能帶回他的骨灰一起回家.
Dickey back home today
Yesterday, I with mummy had a last touched with Dickey, it was the first time that I felt his body with that cold tempeture. It made me understand he really left from us. After "burnt", I held his box. I felt werid. I was thinking, "why it's so light? life just like that?" I was holding the the box of him. It remined myself, I was just holding him on my lap in the taxi last week. Now, I only could brought his "born powder" and back home.
Dickey Chan- 陳迪奇聽日我哋真係要同你講Bye Bye,每次我地出街都會同你講"Dickey~Bye Bye", 但係今次唔同亦無勇氣去講.'老人家'你倦了! 由聽日開始你可以好舒服咁瞓,唔使再比Mummy部CD 機噪醒^^原來人到o左絕望真係會唸埋d無謂野,如果我嫁比Dickey可以救返佢.我真係會架.
ByeBye~thx for everthing in past 16 years
Dickey Chan~ We really have to say "Bye Bye" tomorrow. Everytime we should say byebye to you before we go out, but this time is different and I have no brave to say it to you. "my old man" you should feel very tired! You will have a nice sleep start from tomorrow, and never wake up by Mummy's CD player in every morning ^^ Now I totally understand if people feel hopeless then they might imagaine some stupid thing. If I marry to you that could save your life. I would say, "I do. Dickey. My dear Dickey"
再聽不見你的聲音,懷念你發怒的樣子7/2/09
對唔住,辛苦了你.你真係好叻仔!由朝早6點,医生打電話比我同我講你開始有肺漬水.你足足等了9個鐘,我知道這段時間你不會好受.但我堅持咁同医生講要等埋Daddy返香港去見你,我相信如果你識講野.你自已都會咁同医生講^^當見到你的時候,你喘氣嘅聲音好大.知道你好努力.多謝你~整個過程好快,見到你好舒服咁馒馒瞓着.心好痛,好痛..好唔捨得你.一家人也為你離開呢個屋企以流淚,我地永遠也記住你是這家的一份子.
I can never listen to your voice, miss your anger face
Sorry, I knew you were feeling so sick. You are such a smart boy! Doctor called me in this morning 6 am. She explained to me about your body condition in really bad and started have a "water lung". you had been waiting for 9 hours. I know you should feeling really bad in those hours. Sorry again, I didn't listen to the doctor to let you go earlier. We wanted to wait Daddy come back to Hong Kong and see you one more time. I believe you would say that to doctor as well if you could speak. Once I got there and saw you. Your beathing was sounds so diffcuilt, you tried your best. Thank you. The whole process was so fast, I was watching you fell to sleep. Very pearceful. My heart was broken, painful~Very pain. I didn't want you leave. The whole family cried because of you leave. We will never forget that you were one of the members in our family.
今天Dicky回家了9/2/09
昨日係我同mummy最後一次摸Dickey,從未感受過他的身體如此冰冷.沒有體温,令我真正感受到他的離去.火化後,接到他的骨灰.感覺有點奇怪.心中想,"點解咁輕?生命原來真係咁"抱住那個盒子在的士裹面,令我回想上一個星期才抱住他撘過的士.現在只能帶回他的骨灰一起回家.
Dickey back home today
Yesterday, I with mummy had a last touched with Dickey, it was the first time that I felt his body with that cold tempeture. It made me understand he really left from us. After "burnt", I held his box. I felt werid. I was thinking, "why it's so light? life just like that?" I was holding the the box of him. It remined myself, I was just holding him on my lap in the taxi last week. Now, I only could brought his "born powder" and back home.
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